I talk often about how quickly time has flown by since the birth of my daughter. In 1 1/2 weeks she will be turning 2 1/2. It seems almost impossible. Almost stranger than that is on that very same day, I will be kissing my 30’s goodbye & turning 40. Ouch! This has been a hard realization for me. For me entering my 40’s finally signifies to me the end of my youth.
I look in the mirror & the face looking back is different than the one I remember. There are more lines. The grays from my head seemed to have spread & set up new residency in my eyebrows. My skin is now much looser and things that once were higher… well are not quite so high or perky anymore. It makes me sad, but is reality.
We all grow older. Our faces & bodies age, our looks fade, things begin to ache for no reason & you wake up in the morning feeling hung over even when you don’t drink. You become more forgetful. You become more forgetful. Oh & you tend to repeat yourself. I am certain I have told the same stories to my husband about 101 times. Sex symbols from your youth begin to grace the covers of AARP & even worse than that people now call you ma’am.
My first 40 years on this planet have had their ups & downs. In my life I have made a lot of mistakes. I have been good and been bad. I have had my heart broken and also broken a few hearts. I learned that soul mates are real & married mine. I have seen people I love die & I have brought life into this world. I have laughed, cried & felt utter joy.
I’ve been lucky enough to have seen many places & have done many things…
But there is still so much left I want to do. What things do I still want to accomplish, see or learn? It seems as if there is so much. My bucket list is a long one. Here are a few highlights of an otherwise long list…
1. Be there for my daughter’s wedding
2. Go to Cambodia
3. Learn another language
4. Hike Macchu Picchu
5.Write a children’s book
6. Hold my grandchild
7. Learn how to fence
8. Visit all the U.S states
9. Grow old with my husband
10. Go to the Cherry Blossom Festival in Japan
11. Run a marathon with my husband
12. Go to a masquerade ball
13. Learn to belly dance
14. Pay off our home
15. Get a tattoo that represents my mother
I have not lived a perfect life, but I have lived a pretty good one. I can’t wait to see what the next half will bring.
What’s on your bucket list? I would love to hear.